As I ponder on days past, I gravitated on this particular saying, "to be able, at any moment, to sacrifice what you are for what you will be come." The feeling as I say that to myself is unfathomable. As a younger man, I loathed sacrifice. To sacrifice is give up or to let go and to suffocate is to do away with. I thought to sacrifice something or someone is to die for it. Jesus sacrifice himself for us in such a horrible way. I felt if I had to sacrifice anything I had to do it the way Jesus did. Like the American religious poet and writer, Mary Gardiner Brainard said, "I would rather walk with God in the dark than go alone in the light. For many, many years ago, I have gone alone in the light knowing I have not walked with God. In light, you feel secure. In light, you sense the presence of a higher being. In light, you have no fear. Your mind assumes all those when in light especially with the state of mind of God that He will be there with you always, light or dark. Suffocate those assumptions and your mind will be clear as well as spiritually.
To feel pain is to live. Without it, your dead. Amazing when I hear people say they want to go to heaven but they are not ready to die. Suffocate your lies. Suffocate the doubts. Suffocate your fears. Are you ready to sacrifice every want that you desire? If you were to ask me that 10 maybe 15 years ago, I would say, "Go screw yourself." Ask me now and I'll tell you, "I'll sacrifices my wants and needs." What's change? Fear. It's no longer there. I'm not afraid to suffocate. To sacrifice. To fail. To be myself. Ask yourself this, have you ever known things that you simply had no way of knowing? I know I'm no longer afraid but the thought of it makes me want to embrace the fear. Suffocate my fears ...or embrace them? There is no turning back, I'm going to suffocate it! What are you afraid of?
Mind, body, and soul. Three parts to make a functional human. You lack in one then you are not enlightened (yet). You lack in two then that's impractical. More like worthless. Everyone has one but not too many has two and a very few have three. Then there's the perfect human. The one who have attained such greatness. The one who achieved the enlightenment. What is God's description of the perfect human? Or how about near-perfect? Before my lifetime, should I attain for the status of perfection? I need to conform to the description or definition of God's ideal type. And now, the true question is? Should I try? What are you doing to try? Being more compassionate? Piety? Charity or unselfishness? Love for thy fellow man? Help to strive world peace? If you have perfected the body and soul but not developed your mind, I say you are an idiot. The saying ignorance is bliss. If you do not know, then you are happy. If you do not know how to attain perfection than you are complete. Well, just call me an idiot and I will live my life blissfully.
As I wrote about the past blogs starting with impression (the body), expression (the mind), and now the suffocation (the soul), I feel the reader knows somewhat of my standpoint before I start my daily muse. My rants. My concerns. My goals. ...my life. Come follow me as I try, better yet, attain the level of perfection. What lies ahead is to develop the three parts of a functional human and see my progression. There is no looking back. I'm already hurt and I'm not ready to quit. I might as well keep going and reward myself to the finish. What are you doing to progress? Is your development over once you hit a certain age, career, education, or physical feat?
Life... I have no clue.
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